I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a loved one in death is never easy. I would like to share something with you that I believe will give you comfort. It is found in the Bible at Revelation 21:4 it reads “ And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.” This can really give you comfort to know that the pain you are feeling is temporary. My deepest condolences to you and your family.