lisa, you are a survivor!!! i know you have asked the question why, why, why... we all feel tim was too young for us to say good-bye... he wanted to grow old with you by his side... i remember the day you became his beautiful bride... almost 16 years you were married to this wonderful man... with GOD'S help you will make it, i know you can... when you were a teenage you lost your dad... it made you very sorrowful and painfully sad... 14 years later, the LORD took a close relative again... as much as you loved your brother, you knew the healing had to begin... 10-12 years ago, you had to be strong for tim when his mother passed... that's something you never get over, it just last and last... a few years ago, GOD was there for you when your young granddaughter was called... she didn't live long, she left you before she learned to crawl... my sympathy and condolences to you on the passing of your spouse... tim not being here, leaves a big void in the house... i know your heart is heavy and the weight seems unbearable.. pray to GOD, read HIS word the psalms and parables... through GOD you are strengthened and a survivor... remember, GOD is still in charge, HE is the pilot and the driver... tim always had his shining armor on to show you that he was your knight... being married to you was his great joy and a big delight... continue on the CHRISTIAN road, which you know is right... when you feel weak, GOD is there morning, noon and night... love, your brother, todd